My Occassional Confessions

Hey folks,
Just checking in today to share a few things that have been happening in my world.

• Losing weight when you're inching closer to 40 - yikes, I cannot even believe that number! - is harder than I thought. It's been over a month since I confessed my weight loss struggles and I haven't lost much. I stopped working out routinely (I eat so much when I do). Instead, I've been using My Fitness Pal to help me track and keep my calorie intake to just 1200 a day. THAT IS HARDER THAN YOU THINK! Results? Nothing earth-shattering just yet. I haven't been on a scale (don't like em), so I don't know exact numbers. What I do know is that a few items seem to fit a little better than they did a few months ago. I'm far from the weight I long to be, but I'm hanging in there and feeling much better about myself.
• The 'lil man started daycare and ya'll know by now that I cried like nobody's business. So hard to leave him in the care of complete strangers! Well, I wasn't happy with a few things I observed at the daycare so I frantically scoured the town for another place and he started a new place this week. Please, please let this work out because my heart can't handle it anymore. I now see why so many working moms throw in the towel and stay at home if they can. It is not easy.
• We have been blessed this year with a whopping roster of projects and many more to do. But with that comes some insane burnout. I am exhausted to my core. 
• To that end, we're gearing up for a return trip to Negril in a few weeks and we CANNOT wait!
• I'm obsessed with Fashion Kids on Instagram and Facebook. Stylish kids. Killing it.

• I make a list of everything I need to get done. And I mean in a good old fashioned notebook. Just something immensely pleasing about scratching an item off a list that I can't get enough of.

• I'm down to one can of Red Bull a day. Major, major feat! 
• Grandma is back in DC and the hubs and I are now juggling this parenting thing all by ourselves. No more cushion. It's been a challenge  with my husband's intense schedule, and then there's moi with the  day job and a business to run, but we're learning everyday how to balance it all. Date nights will now be dinner for two at our dining table when the kid's asleep. I tip my hat all the way to single parents. No easy task this parenting. At all. 
• Major confession here: I've thought often about quitting this blog. I've made some amazing friends here, and have been inspired by the incredible business smarts of so many bloggers, but truthfully, there are days when I obsess that I don't spend enough time checking out other blogs, days when I worry too much about gaining more followers; worry about why did these posts get so many comments, but this one got zero? What should have been a fun venture, has at times felt like a full-time job and that's overwhelming, especially when I'm trying to balance the blog with being a newly wed, a new mom, work, the business, clients and maintaining the other social media sites. Is this just the rookie blogger blues? Or did many of you struggle in the first year to keep at it?
• Despite all that, I'm thankful for my blogging partner extraordinaire Debbie, who is able to pick up the slack and keep us going, and who  cracks me up with her silly antics/emails to still make this fun. Huge shout out to all the blogging duets out there.
• And lastly, one of my favorite New York Times writers, who was also my favorite college professor, sent me an unexpected note via Linked In last night. He was blown away/proud that I'd somehow managed to merge my two professional loves of writing and design into a thriving business. It was a reminder to me, to keep on keeping on, and to be eternally grateful for some amazing blessings. 

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Write by: A-Efendy - Thursday, October 4, 2012